3 strikes

And we're out. One more cycle of IUI, and then we're outta there.

What to do next, I don't rightly know.

I'm already talking as though this third try won't work. I suppose it could, but why would it, when the other 2 times didn't?

So now the question is, IVF?

But can I handle it if it doesn't work? I've barely been able to handle it when the IUI's have been unsuccessful. And I know that after IVF, it'll be a hundred times harder. So much more invested, literally and figuratively.

Another friend is pregnant. Due in April. Wasn't planning it. I hate being blind-sided by these announcements. At dinner with some friends last week, the entire evening was spent talking about new baby.

I tried to act interested. But I wasn't. I was angry. And having a pity-party for myself.

When will it be MY turn?

dragging by

I hate the days between the IUI and my period.

I wish I could know immediately if I were pregnant.

Scratch that. I wish I were pregnant.

5 more long days to wait.