4x6

My cyst apparently likes it's home on my left ovary. This was my first time that an actual doctor has performed the scan on me. She remarked how large the cyst was, 4x6 cm. 'No wonder you've been having pain', she says.

Her only concern is if my pain becomes unbearable, it could mean emergency surgery. Great.

But it's not irregular or anything, so she's not concerned about that.

The only problem is having to wait another month to even get my baseline, much less start any fertility treatments.

The past few weeks I've been doing okay emotionally. But today is hard. I think because I got an e-mail about a baby shower. And how we're going to play that game where we all write down advice for the new mother.

As if I have anything to offer. And being the only non-mother of the group, that will be painfully obvious. I want to crawl into a hole and not come out until August 2.

I wonder if anyone would notice?

And also today... fertility treatment is EXPENSIVE. Our cheapest option is still over $1000. Then we have $5K, then we have $13K.

Anyone giving out no-interest loans?