Tomorrow

Tomorrow I will be 10 weeks.

I wonder if it's normal that I still feel infertile? I mean, I'm pregnant. I'm finally (hopefully) going to have 2 sweet babies to hold in a few months.

And yet, I still feel infertile. I don't feel like I think my friends felt when they were pregnant- full of hope and excitement. I still feel broken, like there's something wrong with me.

I wonder if I'll always feel that way?

I guess maybe I'm glad that I do. This infertility is a big part of my story now. I've grown and changed so much because of it, that forgetting it would be impossible.

And I never want to forget how grateful I am for the miracle of life. Because for me, it truly is a miracle.