round 1

Femara again. But twice the dose that I was on 1 year ago, and 2 doctors ago.

I'm anxious.

Next week they'll do another scan, check my follicles, and if all goes well, try IUI.

Did I mention I'm anxious?

It's not that I'm afraid that it won't work. (I mean, I am...) But I'm mostly afraid of how I'll respond if it doesn't work.

I know that with unexplained infertility, the chances of a basic IUI being successful are pretty small. But right now, our finances demand we try it first.

I feel a peace about the decision. I'm anxious about the outcome, but peaceful about the decision.

I'm a total walking contradiction these days. Content one day, desperately lonely the next.

Welcome to my world.