a good read

Lately I've been feeling sentimental. Mostly because it's a new year and as I look forward I inevitably look back.

And what I've realized is that for a majority of this past year, I was rather depressed. Not depressed enough where I can't function or enjoy any part of life. But just depressed enough to push people away, to end up in a downward spiral of self-doubt and self-loathing. Most of this I hid pretty well.

Today I read a very convicting article about depression. I know that the source of my depression is that we haven't started our family yet and time keeps passing. But I also know that there are deeper issues too. Issues that keep me from coping with the grief and the disappointment. And I have a hunch that these feelings of inadequacy won't instantly go away when we do have a child.

So I'm going to post a link here, just to remind myself now and again that I do have hope.

http://ccef.org/hope-depressed